In Case You Missed It...

I will be attending Brigham Young University in Provo, Utah in January! I am more than excited to be attending such a great university! My intended major is Genetics and Biotechnology with an emphasis in Biobusiness. 

Anyone need a roommate for the winter semester?? I'm pretty great :)

Also, I have not had the opportunity or desire to date since the divorce.. So if you are of the male variety and will be in Utah in January, give me a shout ;)

... Yeah, I have no shame.

We All Need Saving

Have you ever been really frustrated with someone who makes a wrong decision? You think you know what is best for them, but you can't change their decision. Like a parent who tells their child not to touch the hot oven, but the child does it anyway?
Or maybe someone with depression who makes silly, irrational decisions in their emotional state?

If you're picking up what I'm putting down, check out this song. It has so much love.

"We All Need Saving"

Come on, come on
You have got to move on
This is not the you i know
This isn't real
It's just all you can feel
And that's the way that feelings go
And whether or not it's right or wrong you'll do what you will do

[Chorus]
When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you're braving
Don't tell yourself you can't lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes

Say what you will but the time that we fill
While we're on the earth
Should not be alone
We were meant to be known
You make me what i'm worth
But i can't keep you from yourself you'll do what you will do

[Chorus]

I don't know why it has to be this way and
I don't know the cure
But please believe someone has felt this before

[Chorus]

Down in the Dumps

I like to think that I'm this invincible, happy-go-lucky, super mature, okay-with-the-divorce, "Miss Independent StrongPants-y" woman.






But I've been feeling really lonely and crummy the past few days. Every happy couple, romantic movie, or little frustration has been really tough for me. And I just really don't know why.

But... You know what? I'm okay with it.
I'm okay with feeling down every once in a while. At least it isn't everyday. If I didn't have these down days, I may start to doubt what my marriage meant to me. My marriage was VERY important to me.

Those days when I feel crummy are real. They remind me of the importance of love. They remind me that I have real feelings. And real feelings are really good.

Crummy days are good. Happy days are better.
:)

I'm Really Not Sure What To Title This Post...

I've struggled self esteem problems my entire life.

I know, very original.

There are many posts that we see on a daily basis like this one:

I sincerely believe that those who post these have good intentions: they hope to make women who believe themselves to be "thick," or not small enough, feel comfortable in their bodies. However, I don't know if those who create or repost these understand the consequences. These posts demean women who work hard for their thinner bodies. These posts demean women who are naturally skinny. 

Posts that say "Real Women Have Curves" are not healthy. So... If you don't have curves, you are no longer a "real woman?" How is that okay?

It's not.

These posts cause problems like this:

Problems like anorexia, bulimia, self-hate, and (in some cases) suicide.

What I'm trying to say is that men and women of ALL sizes are beautiful. Self worth should not be based upon what our bodies look like.

I've been going to the gym on a pretty regular basis recently (about 4 times a week) and seeing ZERO results, yet I've been feeling a lot better about myself. This has caused me to think a lot about self esteem and self worth.

Our self worth/self esteem should not be based on the color of our skin or hair or the number on the scale. It should not be based on our measurements or what society has decided is "sexy."

What should self worth be based upon?

That's not my place to say. However, I know that my self worth is based upon my divine origin as a daughter of God. It is also rooted in the progress that I have made toward the healthy goals that I have set.

I am beautiful inside and out. I am proud of who I am. I love who I am. I look forward to who I can become.

I invite you to find what your self worth is rooted in. Once you find it, please share it with someone (I would love to know!). Sharing your self worth may help to harvest another's self worth.